Ancient Quest

Broken into atoms
I fervently search for you
my body is no longer my limitation.
Your existence pulls me like a cosmic magnet
and I have no clue, should you ever ask me,
why am I the way that I am?
I’m nothing but an explosion in space and time
my self is no longer mine and
I seem to have no control over anything.
But I know one thing for sure:
I can’t be a disaster
for nothing.